☆Wednesday, May 20, 2009
oh god. someone up there help me please.
i am facing a huge dilemma.
okaye,
two dilemmas actually. one is a more realistic problem, and the other's kind of, well, frivalous in comparison XD
so yes, back to my dilemmas.
number one, ntu has sent me an email asking me to go down for a scholarships interview.
but i'm
a little, rather, pretty, kind of almost sure that i wanna go nus. i am also extremely kiasu and think that its really wasted if i don't go down for it. and the online appraisal ms ouyang wrote would go to waste. so being the disgusting procrastinator i am, i kept putting this off right from the very first day i saw the email. and wow, before i could even realise it, time flew past and
today is the freaking deadline for me to indicate my response. and ntu even called me during lunch today to ask me about it. the conversation went sth like this:
me: hello?
ntu: hi, i'm calling from ntu regarding the scholarships interview. your timeslot is actually blablabla. erm, have you checked your email?
me: (panics) erm, no.. i haven't checked my email lately. (smiles guilty-ly to self)
ntu: oh ok, its actually scheduled for you on blablabla. can you make it?
me(in my mind): oh dear. oh no. shit.howhowhow.
me: erm, is it okay if i go and check my email first about the details and i reply you by mail?
ntu: oh sure. please do so by today alright? today's the deadline.
me(in my mind): shitttttttttt ;__;
me: oh sure! thank you very much!
ntu: thanks.
(hangs)
hahahahah i am such a horrible girl. but i'm still considering so i really didn't know how to reply his question! :/ so i thought the best way was to feign ignorance. i ought to get shot, i know XD
i've consulted a few people and they all think i shouldnt go for it since i'm going nus. but i can't prevent myself from being greedy and kiasu! :( and yes, i admit, i'm very auntie. urghhh. okay somehow once i've typed this out and reflected on my actions this dilemma is kind of uncalled for and really kind of stupid. but i'm kind of lazy to go for the interview, and i kind of know that i will not go ntu. but i'm still kiasu.
sigh. but something in me tells me that i will end up not going cos
its on a monday morning,which means i have to take leave, plus its in some ulu area i'm very lazy and am reluctant to go prepare for the interview.
(sighs)
okay on to dilemma number two. XD (which everyone will roll their eyes at and not bother reading on)
i feel like shipping in this very wonderful arashi concert dvd (Arashi Around Asia 2008 in Tokyo) because its really really nice to watch. and the concert venue is like at kokuritsu, the national stadium and its the place where tokyo held the tokyo olympics back in 1964. and they're the third group to have performed there after SMAP and dreams come true, both very big names in the music industry. so it's like something huge. its a milestone! plus, all the songs and stage lightings,settings etc were so amazing! the behind the scenes was really interesting too! and how do i know all this? cos i've watched the whole thing online before. (faints)
so having watched it before, i know exactly how fantastic it is. if i ship it in, it wont be anything fresh anymore since i have watched all the contents. but its so fantastic that i wanna own it. it's about S$46 though and i don't know if i will regret buying it. i mean, there's only so many times that u can continue to rewatch a concert dvd, right?
asdfghjkl i dont know if i should buy it or not. (pulls hair)
it'd be nice to watch them on the big tv screen as compared to my tiny computer monitor though.
(sighs again)
why do i even bother to think so much. T__T it's making my head hurt with relatively unnecessary worries and considerations.
Labels: arashi, rantings:personal, university matters
missingY O U
☆Sunday, May 10, 2009
i am having a horrible headache.
oh my gosh its unbearable x.x
its the same kind tht i had in j2 when i felt like my brain was contracting and my skull was squeeeezing my brain in so hard
omg help help.
i think it has to do with the weather recently.
i need some herbal tea. and i'll get some at amoy tmr. i'll get the most bitter tea they have.
omggg headache please disappear.
oh a not so painful note, i got my very first external hard disk!
its 320gb! : DDD
which is 10 times my antique computer's memory space
and its the portable kind so it's smaller than my palm and i carry it to office to load my videos into my mp5 thingy which can play videos :D
i am now a certified fangirl :D
i am downloading something everyday hohoho
... which might be a bad thing cos i spend my time on the train watching arashi videos
which are so freaking stupid and hilarious i cant help but laugh while watching
and even though i make it as discreet as possible,
well, its still not very discreet.
so please, if you see me on the train holding a small rectangular thing with my earphones on and grinning away at my small mp5, please do not be alarmed.
i'm not crazy(yet) but arashi is really too amusing <3
and another piece of extremely shocking news is that.
i got into nus law school.
never ever ever imagined that i would ever get in.
i mean, i'm like not very intellectual, am doing something unproductive most of the time, speaks chinese 80% of the time(the singaporean way, not the china way) and probably 47962956023470274 other things that will crush ur image of a typical law student.
but gah, i'll treasure this chance really well.
i admit i'm really lucky most of the time(and luckier than i deserve really) and i thank all the gods up there for looking over me everytime
i'll study hard! i really will!
i'll limit my youtube-surfing and drama watching
and spend more time studying haha
cant imagine myself as a law student, but well, we'll take things a step at a time i guess :)
ok i'll go and sleep my headache away now x.x
Labels: rantings:personal, university matters
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☆Tuesday, April 21, 2009
i'm finally back to blog :D
but prob no one even reads this anymore since well, i dont have much of a life left. x(
haven met up with 69 ppl since a level results day lah omg hahaha
sigh
i dont knw what im doing with my life seriously.
everyday is so robotic for me urgh
when i look back at the week each sunday, i feel like i've done nth but data entry
hahahahahha
i haven even been watching dramas cos i get home so late after tuition and there's all the stupid law interviews which i totally screwed x.x
(reminder to self: watch jun's smile(スマイル) and sho's the quiz show once i have the time urgh)
however i have been reading books recently!
qingaide u must be so proud! im readinggg! :D
im hooked onto the in death series which lingyan got so hooked onto
hahaha i finally know why she likes it so much
its all thanks to jasmine's working friend karen for intro-ing it to me and lending me the first 2 books :D
i'm now on the fourth book of the series
and i still have many to go :D
ok just a mini-collation for myself; to get self organised
UPDATES of whatever is left of my life :
-22 apr SMU interview + test zomg + jarett tuition (rmb to leave him eng compo hmwk)
-23 apr cleo tuition (check if empirical formula in her syllabus anot)
-24 apr movie + dinner with jasmine and sr :D
-25 apr (hopefully) meeting up w qingaidee + check tours at chinatwn
-26 apr tuition (x2) (rmb to check out the 2 physics qns for yanzhan)+ nanyang business sch high tea thingy
-27 apr tutee starts SA1 eng compo (prepare him well omg)
-1 may to 3 may labour day long weekend woohoo! :D (maybe going back malaysia celebrate mother's day with ah ma)
-7 may tuition with jarett cos 8 may got SA1 EL - rmb to postpone tuition with cleo
(+ yanzhan has mid years physics paper today)
-10 may tuition with jarett (11 may his maths paper)
-12 may tuition with jarett (13 may his sci paper)
omgg its the season of mid year exmainations! hhahaha
hope all my tutees do well :D
so stresssss hahaha
okaye back to work x.x
Labels: arashi, rantings:personal
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☆Sunday, March 29, 2009
gah i hate my angsty posts haha
cos like when i read it after i get over my angst
i'll be like why the hell did i get so angsty for?!
hahaha but NVM
just came back from malaysia for qing ming
qad actually got worried cos she couldnt contact me
hehs. gomen neh!
love ya loads <333> but GAH he looks so asdfghjkl cute inside!!!
NEVER MIND hahaha
i shall settle for sth else first ;)
god how i dread mondays.
work tuition work work tuition work tuition work T_T
sigh im so tired out i dun even feel like going out on my free days sigh ):
Labels: arashi, rantings:personal
missingY O U
☆Sunday, March 22, 2009
i normally hate saying this word, but seriously,
EEEEEFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF IT.
bloody hell
i cant sustain a proper conversation w YOU anymore without feeling freakingly QI GEK and having tears well up in my eyes.
EFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.
urgh this suckssss ):
what's the point of getting the grades i have if we cant come to a consensus and i cant decide what i eventually want to do?
seriously, wtf. Labels: rantings:personal, university matters
missingY O U
☆Thursday, March 05, 2009
i.feel.like.shit.
shit factor #1: A lvls results are coming out tmrrrr. how shitty is that. very very shitty.
shit factor #2: i dont knw wht i wanna do anymore. after i kinda eliminated my options, i thought that i would go with accountancy. but it seems like
the whole world the adults dont think its a good choice. rah. can u imagine my aunt called all the way from malaysia just to check if my results were out?! and my dad had this long happy chat with her and "oh, so what would u recommend qiuyu to go into?" and "ya, i think law is still the best too". like, T_T?! i think part of the reasons i dont wanna do law is cos im totally being rebellious and i dont want to do what my father has wanted me to do since i was how young -.- sounds unbelievably childish but yes x.x and PLUS its highly unlikely i'll get into law anw -_- ARGHH i wish he'd stop having dreams for me when i dun even have any for myself djnknwoifeflm
shit factor #3: office ppl are going to ask me for my results when i return to work on monday. extremely shitty. :/
shit factor #4: stella's leaving for her barn in melbourne tmr ): which means we wont get to see her for like a few months! :O i'll miss you loads girl!!! take care in australia k! (hugs)
shit factor #5: im rotting in office. again. how am i gonna live past the end of the day rotting with all the anxieties in my heart!!!! gg T_T
sigh, dont mind me, its just the pre-results-day angst. ARGH.
Labels: A levels, rantings:personal, university matters
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☆Thursday, February 19, 2009
hahaha my blog has been rotting for god knows how long
and aiba's car has been on the first entry for damn long also
i hvn really got time to update since work takes up all of my day
and on mon wed and thurs nights i have tuition
and i considerably dont have much free time now
and even if i do have any free time, i have to catch up on reading my flist on lj tht updates itself with damn a lot of posts each day xD
plus i have doramas to catch :D
so yes but ive finally found time to blog!
in my office!
i' m free on most days
but today im exceptionally free
cos almost the whole dept is not in office as they have sth to deal with
so ive pretty much finished my work until they come back
or until new fax comes in (its only 930am btw xD)
so yes
onto my life(or whtevr is left of it) for the past many days ive not been blogging
there were so many things happening actually i kind of regret not updating them one by one so i can read it back a few months/years later and relieve myself of the youthful days xD
so there was the TAIWAN TRIP with 69! :D
which was super duper fun :D
im not really gna give an account of it la since photos are up on facebook and mel/sharon have blogged abt it alr xD
but yes.
i think it was amazing how we were able to wake up at 7 plus am every morning haha
and eat the not-so-sumptuos breakfast buffet provided by rainbow hotel
hahahaha i think its really easy to travel around taipei cos the trains are so efficient and so convenient!
and the ppl there, like japan were really really considerate on public transport
like when they take the escalator, they all really keep to the right (instead of left haha). and in the train they're relatively quiet. hahaha i think we made the most noise (as usual)
ahh i miss the times in taiwan ):
where we drank bubble tea(all sorts of variations: hot,cold, small pearl, large pearl, fresh milk etc) everyday
and ate from night markets everyday
and shopped like crazy everyday (seriously hahaha)
and the stupid attack by the guys on us girls in unmac's and ry's hotel room on weeyong's bday HAHA
and the theme park where i didnt sit like 60% of the rides but HAHA we shant talk abt it xD
hahah so in a nutshell, taiwan with the 69 peeps was amazing to the max <3
yay! we should go overseas or smth again (:
thn there was cny
but i cant really rmb anything significant abt this year cos a bit too rushed from tw trip
i didnt even buy new clothes la hahaha
so yea
and aft cny was bong's birthdayyy! :D
her super unplanned birthday bash haha
but it was fun meeting up with qing shinq lix joo jean mich bong jiayi carolanne danfong clara etc etc at her party haha
and i helped to start the fire! (im qt good really xD)
but yes, had a really nice time catching up with all the ppl whom i hvn met up with for 3479243years (maybe except qing and shinq and carolanne) hahaha
and she even had a theme zomg -floral
hahhaa and i only had one piece of super red floral dress hahaha
so bright ._.
hahaha but yay her bday party was funn (:
and a few days aft bong's bday was skippy's bday!
and we went to lix's house for a jacuzzi party hahahaha
where we were supp to sit in her jacuzzi and sip on mocktail xDDD
sounds super bimbotic haha
but it was damn fun too :]
like just talking in the jacuzzi and experimenting with all the different jets
and there were 2 specially powerful jets tht nobody really wanted to go into haha
in the end our drinks left relatively untouched la hahaha
but hahah it was funn (:
the cupcakes tht lix's mum baked for skippy were super pretty too!!
its like mostly pink and pruplish and very very very exquisite kind haha
qt she bu de to eat them up but we still did anw and it was damn nice!
haha aft tht it was back to normal
with routine daily work and tuition
and a date with qingaidee (FINALLY) on vday :]
we should go out more often laaa qinagaidee stop getting isolated in ur little buona vista corner of singapore
hahhaahah
and i think i shall stop here for nowwww
god knows when i'll update again haha
byebyeeee
Labels: rantings:personal
missingY O U
☆Sunday, January 11, 2009
i have found a job!
and so has qingaide!!
nvm tht her pay is so much more than mine hahahaso after one month of job seeking we are officially employed ppl
it'd be weird not meeting up with her like a few times per week anymore now tht we work in diff places ):
but we can still meet up for dinnnerrr :D
just came back from bugis whr qingaide and me shopped for office wear but only I bought office wear cos she spent close to a hundred on not-so-office-wear-clothes xDD
tsk tsk
haha so i'll be working at this place called BCA, which is a govt stat board
doing admin.
haha and i'll be at tanjong pagar!
where sharon and kaili is!!!! (:
so we can have lunch dates hahaha
i only start work on wed though
i cnt believe i'd say this but i think i cnt wait to start work hahaha
and taiwan trip is planned abt 70% done le bah! (:
stella's coming over to finish up the rest tmr :]
i think our itenarary's pretty packed with fun places to go and nice places to shop!! :D
cnt wait for fri to arriveeee!
although i've been to tw b4 le but this time its qt different from my last trip haha
cant waittt!
(and i cant wait for kopan too qad! <3)
so life's been pretty exciting recently hahah
but once tw trip is over and work becomes a daily thing
it'd be booorrringggg again x.x
Labels: rantings:personal
missingY O U
☆Sunday, January 04, 2009
so its finally 09! (:
i spent my last few moments of 08 at qing's church
which was qt fun (thanks for inviting me!)
saw lots of random st nicks ppl and even a yellow badge junior from guides whom i didnt really talk to in guides but yet acted as if i knew very well her for 10 years alr when i saw her at church
qing attributes it to the church atmosphere
hahah
i went home aft tht to celebrate countdown with family as well as not let my two poor folks at home celebrate it with wen wen only
my mummy was complaining how lonely she was at home since my the other bro was not at home either xDDD
and besides going home meant i was able to watch johnny's countdown on keyhole tv
but i missed it anw, reached home too late (WHY JAPAN ONE HR FASTER THN USSS)
but thn again, i doubt i would be able to catch it even if i were on time since a few thousand ppl were logged on to keyhole too in hopes of catching the johnny's countdown
the server would probably just keep logging me out xD
and it would be lag like shit
ah wells, i downloaded the high quality uploads of the countdwn anw :D
i love lj fangirls (:
oh we finally booked our taiwan trip! (((:
we paid our money le so yay we are on our way to taiwannnnnn :D
kinda VERY excited for the trip! (:
i'm prepared to go there and buy like cheap(er) arashi cds and singles!!! (like the tw versions)
and go shop like dunno wht!
and go revisit all the boring places of attractions tht i went 2 yrs ago!
and go eat at the ye4 shi4! :D
hahaha yay the trip would be very funnn with stella sharon mel sarahs weetard unmac ry jon! :D
altho the hotel will probably be like shit.......... we'll live with it (nods)
ok i'm hoping to find any presence of anything JE there seriously
お楽しみ！！！
oh a much much much MUCH sadder note
its 09 alr but yet i havent got a job yettt x.x
piangs eh altho my papa got tell me not necessary to find one (i can always opt for courses and the likes)
i wanna earn my own moneyy!
and i wanna have something to do everyday (though boring)
haiyer
and i've got my ntu interview tmr !
hahaha i'm supp to go do prior research but the internet holds so many videos for me to watch tht i feel lazy and reluctant to actually go research
but compared to my jpb interviews, i actually think the ntu interview is a small thing XDDDD
which shldnt be the case
but oh wells
i never got my priorities right before anw
but if i really do get the ntu scholarship, i can help my daddy save about $50000 or more during my whole uni ed
which can then be given to me!
hahah which is worth 50 months of working (assuming i earn 1000 a month)
which makes so much more economical sense
but. haha.
i'm not really a scholar material so the chances of getting tht is slimmmmmmm
like qingaide says. we have no money. no job. no aspirations.
we are poor inside out. xDDDD
patheticccc urghhhhhh
ok tht topic always makes me nauseous and giddy x.x
so i'll talk abt sth happier!
when i was surfing the web, i abruptly found out tht AIBA CAME TO SG BEFOREEEEE
piang eh!!! for some variety show filming. he went to zoo, bird park and merlion!!!!!
zomgggg heng it was in 2006
if it was recently, i would throw myself off the now under maintenance Singapore Flyer
like UWAHHHHH
ok i shall go to the merlion park soon then i would have stepped on the same place tht aiba stepped on! (:
and aiba also called up singapore hmv on his radio show to check whether arashi albums were sold in sg xDDDD
tht took place this yr
the luckkyyyy hmv staff who picked up his calllllll x.x
if i were the person i think i would go crazyyy xD
somemore aiba's voice so distinct (esp his english accent xDDD)
i probably would shout into the phone
ANATA WA AIBA MASAKI SAN DESHOUUUU!!!??? NE! NE! AIBA SAN DA YO NE!!
and tell him their albums sell like hot cakes and they have hugeee fanbase here and they should totally plan for an arashi concert in singapore the moment they put down the phone xDDD
ahh, of dreams, dreams and more crazy dreams xD
ahaha, happy new year ppl
hope i get a job soon (:
仕事が欲しいな～～～～～～～～～～～マジで（泣）
Labels: arashi, fangirling, japanese, rantings:personal
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